Defeated

Sometimes, I feel crushed and I know from living with Bipolar that this is something I'm bound to feel every once in a while if not constantly. I just really wish I didn't feel this way, that this feeling would go away. Every so often I'll have a week where I'm totally down and I can't get myself to do much of anything. On top of that I get so upset that I'm not working that I get stressed out which compounds the preexisting feeling. I guess that kinda sprouts from my desperate need to not let you guys down.

But that's just it. Sometimes I'm the exact opposite. I'm so happy that I feel as light as air, I feel motivated, inspired, driven. I feel as if I could climb the tallest mountains, solve the hardest puzzles and really its times like this that were vital to my companies success. This motivation, I wish I could hold on to it all the time. To escape this rollercoaster of fear and triumph. The highest highs and the lowest lows. My thoughts can get so out of control that I can't escape them, but, I should remember that no matter how hard life gets I will always be far from being defeated;

Who Am I?

So, this is a question I've been asking myself basically as long as I can remember. I never really knew who I was, only who I wanted to be and till this day I'm not totally sure if that's enough for me?

Anyway here's a poem to explain:

I travel this world, by car by plane. Never doing as told occasionally walking into pain. People are tough but I've grown tougher. I don't mean to be rough towards you or another. I'm just doing my own things, staying in my own lane. Tying these strings getting tangled in bane. I know I'll figure it out with you or without. No need to doubt, scream or shout. So maybe one day I'll learn, a thing or two about me. Then maybe I'll lose all concern in who I aught to be.

Try and be happy today,

Brianna

I've accomplished my dream of having a blog I don't use.

Hey loves <3

Throughout my time doing this sort of thing I have always looked up to creators with blogs that they never update. I was always so inspired by these creators and what they do that I wanted my own little blog at some point too. I didn't plan to not update it but here I am doing the same thing those creators did that I noticed as a smaller creator.

Just thought I would share that with you, Brianna