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Somethings Missing

Updated: Nov 13, 2020

It’s been a while since I wrote in here. Last time I felt defeated but now I’m feeling different. I took a chance and moved across the country to live with my boyfriend. I’ve been living here since the end of July and it’s been the best experience of my life. I’m more social, I’m playing tennis, I joined a gym, I have my own house, my own office. Everything is better.

However I can’t help but feel like somethings missing. like I forgot something along the way. I’m happier than I’ve ever been all my life. Even just being out of the house being that was the source of some of my worst fears is amazing and for the first time in what feels like ever I’m able to sleep flawlessly. So why do I feel like somethings missing?

I searched pretty deep for the answer to this and haven’t found anything that resolved the feeling. Sometimes I think maybe I’m just in a totally new place and that I’ve broken the endless cycle of working all day long every day of the week and the adjustment is just too much. It doesn’t feel like the right answer, but it’s all I got for now.

Might add more to this post one another time, kinda tired.

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